No, it's not like i want to convince myself. I decided this. And that's the way i'm gonna do it. Am i angry? Hell, yeah. To life. Life just fucked me up. Life hasn't given me anything real or good for a year. But rot there, bitch! My 18th birthday is coming. I'll have 4 different parties. Every weekend is a party. I'll be 21 years old till the end, right? Adult officially.

I'm writing a list about what a wanna reach. And what's on that list... is gonna be reached. I laugh at you life! I'm gonna mocking you! And this is that fuckin' first step what i was afraid to do. But now, I have it written. Here. On my blog. So i have to do this! I must do this!

So for one more time: my aim gonna be reached...