Birthday party 1/4

So, last Saturday. It was really on. NO! It wasn't even good. It was shit. My friend and his girlfriend (who was celebrated too, she was born one day after me) had a fight about a little thing, so the party-mood was gone.

Though i had a really great conversation with a blond girl, she had a boyfriend (the guy just came later). Didn't feel good after that. But i really liked that girl... Hmm...

The question of the week:
What do you think, is it rude to hit on a girl who has a boyfriend (and i know that)?

I'm gonna write about all the parties which I'm gonna have... 3 more.

Elections are coming

The Hungarian elections will be in April. And now, that tomorrow I'm an adult officially, i became some people's target. Take for example the bus driver, who gave a newspaper to me. One of the parties' newspaper. Stupid little motherfucker. I could report him to the police. How cool would that be?

The other thing what i just loved was my friend's mom, who asked me "You are not gonna vote for THIS party, are you?" How does she dare? It's absolutely personal. I thought i blow my mind away.

Anyways, i love the attitude of people in this little country.

Sickness on my name-day

We have name-days in Hungary. Every name has a date, mine is 14th of February and we get little presents. It's like the little brother of birthday. Not so important, but still... it's another time to celebrate a little. And i got sick. Shit.

On 13th of Feb me and my friends go out to celebrate my 18th birthday (18th of February) - yes, we decided to bring it to a sooner date, cause i'll have 3 other parties - and i got sick there. Cause we walked in the cold a lot. Finally we just drank some beer, and it wasn't my birthday party. Not everybody came.

Anyway, now i'm sick. I went to the new doc (you know, i can't go anymore to pediatrician, i'll be an adult in a few days. He some PRESCRIPTION of CAPSULES, and i don't have to go to school this week. Cool.

I'm gonna write about my other parties... It wasn't even the first birthday party, it was the zero.

Refillin', fucka!

So, my past few days were complete emptiness. But today. Today i decided to refill. I don't give a fuck about how hard life is, i'm gonna show all the motherfuckers that i can do it. Do what i want, and how i want. I can control myself. DO NOT let your emotions command you. YOU! You control your emotions only. No one can force me not to follow my plans. My will is my will.

No, it's not like i want to convince myself. I decided this. And that's the way i'm gonna do it. Am i angry? Hell, yeah. To life. Life just fucked me up. Life hasn't given me anything real or good for a year. But rot there, bitch! My 18th birthday is coming. I'll have 4 different parties. Every weekend is a party. I'll be 21 years old till the end, right? Adult officially.



I'm writing a list about what a wanna reach. And what's on that list... is gonna be reached. I laugh at you life! I'm gonna mocking you! And this is that fuckin' first step what i was afraid to do. But now, I have it written. Here. On my blog. So i have to do this! I must do this!
So for one more time: my aim gonna be reached...

Music with drugs

As you know a lot of (or every?) musicians use drugs to get those experiences which they would never life through without them. Take for example Limp Bizkit... What kind of drugs could make Wes Borland to create a guitar theme like 'Livin it up' or 'The One'? Great song...
I haven't really tried drugs, that's why I'm asking... I donno... But that drug maybe had a good effect on me too. And when the police ask me why, I'm gonna tell 'C'mon i had to do this, for the band'!

My band by the way is NIBS. It's great, just we haven't got together to play for 2 weeks. It sucks. Those Sundays are the best. The friends come over to my basement and we enjoy the music and stuff and talk and eat a lot... Fun to do...

But i think i would never dare to try synthetic drugs, like heroin, LSD, and more... I mean I'm not a famous musician, right?

The bottle


When your bottle has been empty for a while whatchu do? Refill, right? Awesome, so you just need something, a good liquid which is the perfect choice to fill your bottle. Which - i repeat - is empty. Questions about the past:

"You shouldn't have to drink that previous drink that fast, right?"
"You should have taken care about that stuff more, shouldn't ya?"

But there is one more question which is the most important:
"If you were that stupido that you haven't see after enough your bottle's content than where the heck you can refill that fuckin' stuff from?"
But let's be optimistic... at least my bottle isn't crumpled... just empty...